Always Not Enough

I feel never turned off- always not enough. Not doing enough, not fulfilling the simple roles I play in life. Consistently missing texts and calls- replying to emails inconsistently either immediately or 5 days later. My room is overwhelming. I don't feel inspired or together or confident but consumed, out of control, and upset.  My mind is whirling with to dos and concepts and dreams with nothing coming together. It's like one thing gets done and another is un done. I'm exhausted every night feeling no productivity- the idea of change is exciting and hopeful but exhausting to know how long it will take. I'm angry upset and frustrated. I'm embarrassed.  

What I can't forget

• Laundry of all blankets

• Projector, aux cord, extension cord back to dad

• Bella Tuesday 

• Camilla Shoot this Wednesday 

• World relief 2:00 Sunday

• World relief meeting  Monday 

• Isaiah bible study Monday 

• Update Rivera payment

• Pay A&TT

• Tuesday night refugee reunion 

• Ron and Erin Wedding Gallery due in the week